I need comfort like I need more debt, like I need higher rent, like I need vitamins.
I never felt safe so why start now.
I need a shot of adrenaline when I feel exhaustion begin to win,
just a little stimulation before the endless vacation.
I left every home I ever built, afraid I’d die if I stood still,
and leaned into this existential failure.
It’s not brave to run away when it’d be so much harder to have to stay
and take a long look at yourself
Because when you start from zero and turn out fine
it gets easier to think that that’s a life. And I never felt right feeling good.
I’m scared, I’m restless, I’m bored.
I want to be happy but it feels like a fucking chore.
There’s a chance I died doing 105 through the vineyards to I-5
but no one had the heart to tell me.
They saw the grin on my face as I leaned straight-ahead into my fate
and hoped some day I learned to sit still.
Oh god I hope one day I have a will.
credits
from Deals, Deals, Deals!,
released June 7, 2019
Lyrics by Diego medrano
Music by Ramona
supported by 44 fans who also own “Panama by Van Halen”
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